God put me through a study today of receiving “pressed down, shaken together and running over …men pouring things into my bosom”. Look! If you want to Give – and you do, and you want to Give as Christ leads – and you do, then you better be ready to receive. Because here it comes. Luke 6 38 Give, and it shall be given unto you; good measure, pressed down, and shaken together, and running over, shall men give into your bosom. For with the same measure that ye mete withal it shall be measured to you again. As many of you know God has had me on this faith walk in which He told me to quit my job and walk on through life trusting Him to provide everything for me. He has. Of course Satan has been messin' with me and I have no home, car, money...but God is blessing me abundantly with everything I need and there is always somewhere for me to live and definitely food to eat. The walk and provisions come with Him putting me places where I am a blessing...you know like Elijah and the widow of Zarephath scenario. Along the way here lately, more and more and more people are giving me things. I was getting uncomfortable, but Father said I'd better get used to it. Since I had agreed to give up my life and do what He said do and therefore lost everything (doesn't happen to every believer), I'd better get very comfortable with receiving a lot of stuff 'Man' was going to (and is) pouring into my bosom. Get ready if you have allowed yourself to be led into the wilderness. Get ready if you have given up your life to follow Christ. Get ready. Heaven is open over your head and people are going to start pouring things into you bosom (your life). Get ready!

Did God Send You To The Wilderness?

LOL. I'm trying out book titles. Maybe I'm wrong, but I think maybe I should say something more exciting than Faith Journey Now. Even though a faith journey it has been. Perhaps I should think of the audience the Lord God has in store for me. Perhaps I should consider the book signings I will do and who would invite me to speak at them. What title would cause that to be. You can see more about my journey at my blog, The title above says more about how I really feel about this faith journey. Especially, as I still hang on and much of what the Lord said would happened hasn't. The most important thing is to 'fix your eyes upon Jesus' - and you better believe you can see him and are looking at Him. You will loose your grip, else.

My Grandson Dahntay and I

Are You Twice Dead?

Jude talks about people in Church being "twice dead" (Jude verse 12c). I've never known what the Lord meant through Jude, but I heard a teaching on it recenty and I believe this is from the Lord. Jude is saying there are people in the Church that Jude was complaining about who don't have anything to talk about that God is doing in their lives right then. These church folk only have tales about what God did with them at one time. It is all old stuff, dead stuff, happened long time ago. They have nothing God is doing in them right now.

Oh my!, I thought. Here I am, in a rush to get though this time. But let me rejoice because this is a time when God is doing something in my life. God forbid I move on and God not have anything for me to do.

WHAT DOES GOD EAT?

Dahntay my six year old grandson asked me the other day, “Grandmother, what does God eat?” Well of course I said God doesn’t need to eat, but just as I said that the Holy Spirit said, “Tell the boy I eat his praises”. And so I complied. As any six year old he drank it in and God caused it to come out of my mouth so smooth and clear that Dahntay didn’t even have a comeback or further questioning. “God eats your praises Dahntay. When you tell Him how great He is and how much you love Him, He eats that.”

I was grateful for the Lord’s intervention because I had never thought of that myself.

Ode to the Spirit of the Living God

He will lead me to the right things.
It won’t be hit and miss, but I can trust my spirit now to follow Him.
I’m listening to Him and seeing Him, even if not with physical eyes.
He’s here right now and loving on me.
He’s relaxed so I can be relaxed.
There is nothing to fear.
He is looking at me.
Watching me.
Looking at the world with me.
He’s actively pressing me forward. Gently encouraging.
Don’t step out of the work, He says.
Stay in. Slow down.
Enjoy every moment.
Don’t get off yet and go your own way.
Don’t listen to those who are saying it’s up to you.
It’s not up to you, it’s up to Me
and I appreciate you giving Me the room
you’ve given for Me
to do what I need to do.


copyright 2010 Carroll Ayo Durodola

Where is the Breakthrough?

On a online forum recently a sister wrote, “Where is the breakthrough?” I hear you sister I’m waiting for my breakthrough too. We are wondering what is going on? How long will we wait. God has sent me out, without a purse, extra cloak, etc., as he sent the 12 & 72 in the Gospels, and He has told me to go on in faith and I did. I’m still out here, waiting on Him, like a waiter, serving Him. He gave me instructions and tightened me up even more over the last few weeks, that I should write children stories and keep writing. And as a pastor said recently, I’ve been "writing with one hand and doing spiritual warfare with the other".

But I felt for this sister who was so frustrated because the breakthrough was not coming. What I saw from the exchange in that forum, is that people don’t have patience anymore with a whole lot of words, they want some action. All kind of talking is just tiring us out. We want some action like Jesus talked about – go into all the world preaching the gospel, healing the sick and casting out demons. We’ve grown up in church that harps on going into all the world preaching the gospel, but very little miracles or spiritual warfare. We’re annoyed with our ‘shepherds’ and ourselves and now we want real answers when things don’t work out.

The only One who can give us real answers is the Holy Spirit. He’s here now. He’s here to teach us. He’s available to us and we have to reach in to Him and give up trying to figure it out and stop expecting Him to be on our timeline. When is it going to come!!!! How long should I wait? Am I doing the wrong thing? I must be wrong, ‘cos God’s not wrong. What spiritual warfare should I be involved in?

What I’ve found when I get into this whirlpool of thought, is to look up and start praising God. Even though I can feel the frustration of my sister, I am grateful she came out and expressed herself, because it sounded so much like me, that I was riveted. Those whirlpool moments do stop but it’s not over. They stop and then when I think I’m pretty well stable in faith, they hit me again when I least expect it.

One assurance I have from God is that He will not disgrace me. That I will not regret following Him. The lack that I’m experiencing now is just a hit at my pride, because I have to stay with friends and family and they have to supply all my needs. So I am taken care of, just like God said, but not the way I want or expected. I am grateful, however, for friends and family and that my lot was not to have to live in a homeless shelter, which two women of God that I know, had to go through.

I see that there are so many of us so frustrated that the Lord is going to have to use all kinds of ways to keep us on track and on our way to victory. Buckle up kids, it’s going to be like a Get Smart movie!!! Don’t miss it ‘by that much'.